This year has literally been the worst year of my life.. And its not even over yet. Its only February and I have been the lowest I’ve ever been.
And I don’t think 2017 is going to get any better.
At the start of January, I made a change with my blog and myself. My blog got redesigned and I changed my hair. I felt like this year was going to be a good year. And it was up until 1/4 though January when my mental health went down hill. And its been a rollercoaster ever since.
I took a day of college because it was too much. I hated how I looked and that was sparking a depressing stage in my life.
Now one thing you might want to know about me is I’ve always 100% throughout my life always felt ugly. One relationship I was in, he got bullied because he was dating me and that made me feel horrible. I’ve never felt pretty or beautiful ever because I’ve been told so many times that ill never be that. And I believed every word.
If anyone complimented me I wouldn’t just say “Im really not”.
Because I know im not.
I’ve learned to accept that ill never be that no matter how hard I try. This is so depressing and im already starting to get teary.
You all don’t know what I look like and its best if you never find out.
Anonymous blogger signing out xxx