I’m really not sure what to think anymore, I feel myself getting into a depressing state because my life sucks so much. I hate my life with a passion, it is just a waste of everything.
Im a waste of space, worthless. Im genuinely nothing. 2017 starts and I thought it would be a great year
“No negative posts” I said. Well that didn’t fucking happen, look at me now!
What do I even do anymore? There’s no point in me being around, I seriously don’t think I should live any longer. I’ll have a think about it before I make a decision.
On top of the fact that I have no one in my life that gives a shit about me. Who the fuck do I have in my life that cares?! Literally no one. Everyone has given up on me and when I try and talk to anyone they ignore me.
Im not surprised everyone has given up on me, im a stupid piece of shit anyway. Who would want anything to do with me? I wouldn’t want to be my friend.
This year has been the worst year of my life. It started out almost good and then I had an eating problem and then I felt like shit and then it turned into depression, I’ve cried more times than I could count. I thought everything was getting better on the 18th February and it did. I fell in love then and then things went downhill in March.
Oh my god, don’t get me started on March. March has been a fucking shit month. I cried way too much, but I did have some good times.
I think the amount of times I smiled and laughed balanced out the times I’ve cried and I only had to thank one person for that.
But then in April, things went shit again and I cried even more. And now a little bit over a week later im here. Sad. Angry. Depressed. Not feeling any happiness genuinely because I lost my happiness on the 3rd April. I wish I could move on but I can’t.
I just want something to happen that would make me smile, or laugh. Right now, im pretty low and I’m handling it alone. I really won’t bottle it up because then I will literally do something drastic.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Anonymous blogger signing out xxx