Personal, Boring and Whatever Shit I Have To Say

I might as well just talk about everything in this post, no matter how personal or boring it is. It’s properly about time.

First let’s get what I believe is the boring stuff out the way. I’ve been working out everyday for a while now and it’s been good. Some days are worse then others because it’s like; 90 squats, 30 push ups, 45 second plank.. which I absolutely hate because it’s painful however I’ve done it for over 2 minutes before so it’s not impossible for me to do it for 45 seconds. I have rest days which is literally heaven to me. I don’t see a difference yet physically but mentally I do. I’m sort of at peace with my body issues. I’m not sure if I’ve ever addressed it but if you didn’t know now you know, I just hated how some parts of my body look.. my arms and legs are basically it. I’m working in it with my workouts.

Whilst that’s out the way, might as well get personal. I posted about bottling things which until late hasn’t been an issue. I get mad at myself when I tell people what’s sort of going on, I don’t ever want sympathy. I hate sympathy, don’t give me sympathy. I’ve tried to be one of those really brick walled people, basically show no emotion and be really strong. When I tell people about stuff like mental stuff, I feel weak and then I get mad at myself for opening up. I don’t know, it’s weird yet makes complete sense to me. I’ve opened up wayyy to much this year already and I’m stopping myself from doing that.          

Another thing is, which I’m never said at all before, is that I kind of like someone… before all you and make your predictions.. don’t. Don’t say who you think it is, or ask me if it’s right. Wow, I’m defensive today😂  but seriously, just don’t bother. It will really piss me off. So that’s been on my mind for a while. Let’s just go to a different subject. I’m already getting mad at myself for saying that.. do you see what I mean? Any bit of opening up, I get mad at myself. It’s pathetic. I have issues.. but you have them too. Are those the lyrics? I have no idea 😂

Well, I’ve opened up enough. So.. I’m just going to head to the door. Thank you for being here, and reading this crap. Please also don’t leave sympathy. I really don’t need it.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

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Start Of The Month Ramble

Hey, it’s A and welcome back to my blog.
You’ll be happy to know that this post won’t be depressing and you won’t leave contemplating life.. Isn’t that a good thing?

Anyways, its August.. Which means a few things;
1. A long ass month
2. A lot of birthdays
3. The only month I have left before college 😓😭

I will make this month memorable, so I set up a list of what I want to achieve/what I want.
1. I want to get a Morphe palette. They are so raved about and I just want to try it.

2. Get out a little more because I don’t do that quite enough.

3. Decorate my room the way im happy with.

4. Write more posts, because I’ve been lacking recently. And also do a few collabs.

5. And finally, I want to do something way out of my comfort zone. I haven’t decided what yet, but I want to do it in this month.

That’s what I want to do this month, and I’ll update you all in September. Also, if you do want to collab then message me on one of my social medias, ill leave them down below.

Twitter : @lifeas_a
Instagram : @lifeas_ablog

Twitter I am way more active on then my other socials but if you don’t have twitter, I will still see your message.

Anyway, thank you for reading. I’ll see you again soon.

Anonymous blogger,signing out xxx
(P.S – I literally just typed my outro without looking at the keyboard, I have definitely written it a lot)

Hey, it’s a Rant!

This post is going to go one of two ways..

1. I’ll rant on about how shit my life is..

2. I’ll do a mild version of feeling a severe emptiness deep down and not caring about how much I don’t give a fuck about anything.

Because that’s all I do, started as a way of helping people now this blog triggers everyone because of how depressing it is.

No fucking surprise though, so what’s going on A? Are you having a mental breakdown again? You seem angry..

Okay, I am angry.. At myself.
I went into a spiral of disappointment and frustration.
Disappointed at my blog and how it has turned out, frustrated at how I’m literally so sensitive that one thing that is so insignificant could sent my mental health flying.

I hate myself for how I could see a fucking piece of shit on the floor and feel sad about how alone it is.. Like why the fuck are you so sensitive? Stop being like that, you’re literally the piece of shit.

Oh that person wrote a few words and now you’re sad that your friendship is going downhill, like girl get a fucking grip.

I can’t even go a day without feeling like that, I always need constant reassurance that they still like me and don’t hate me.. But then again I think they’re lying.. Honestly good luck to all of my friends.. You are amazing for wanting to put up with all of this.

I can’t even stand myself for most of the time, that’s why I sit down most of the time…….. I know.. I facepalmed too.
I make great jokes.. Not really, they’re pretty atrocious.

Anyway, you’ve had your dose of insanity for today so I’ll go now.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

Not Really Liked.

Hello. Okay, I want to be completely honest. I feel like I’m not that liked in the blogging world, this isn’t for attention.. This is literally just me saying how I feel.. And that’s genuinely how I feel.

Maybe I’m just too outspoken, and people don’t like that.. I’m not as sweet, supportive and caring as Elm I’m not funny and witty like L.
I say what’s on my mind and I guess that’s not okay.
I’ll share my depressed moments a lot more then others because that’s apart of my day and my if I show all the good part then it portrays that my life has no bad parts, which there completely are.

My point is, this blog is real and tells the truth.. With no bullshit inbetween.

I can sort of understand why I’m not that liked now..

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

People I Appreciate

 

Hellooo people, welcome back to my blog.. Or welcome to my blog which ever one it is, I’m glad you stopped by.

Anyway, today as you can tell by the title, I want to just talk about the people who I appreciate so much.

1. Dani
Dani is one of my closest and bestest friends, she is so caring and so amazing. I’ve known her from basically the start and only this year have we become so close. Definitely check her and Lyss’ blog out, it’s amazing.

2.  If you’ve read my post called ‘Ramble’ you’d know I made a friend, and we instantly connected. For the last, I believe nearly a month we have become quite close. He knows about my blog, which is a huge thing for me to tell anyone. He’s a really great person, very caring and an idiot.. But a good, funny type of idiot, if that makes any sense.

3. My best friend.
She’s also a fucking idiot.. Yesterday went and had a whole feast at the back of Asda on a wall.. (It was delicious though). I’ve know her for so long, and I love her 💙

These three people are key priorities in my life, they’re three amazing friends I’m happy to have.
Thank you.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

 

Dear Your Broken Heart

You don’t know who can walk into your life and change it so significantly that it’s unfathomable, that person that walked out of your life did the right thing.

That person can walk out that door without the slightest bit of sadness and that’s honestly great. Sadness is defined an emotional pain, and if leaving caused them none of that then, you shouldn’t feel hurt.

They left without hesitation, and you felt deeply saddened by that. Maybe that person was so special and close to you, maybe that person changed you in ways you felt like you couldn’t do on your own but as I said at the start, people can walk in your life and change it so significantly.

There will always be someone else that unexpectedly walks in your life, that person could become something you cherish more then life itself.
A friendship so remarkable could blossom, or even a relationship that could spark a time you never want to forget.
It’s takes time to heal from a wound, and even more for a broken heart.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

No Title

Lately, I’ve come to realise that I’m not good enough, for anything at all. Yeah, I know what you’re thinking “Stop asking for attention A”.
I’m sure a lot of you, if not all of you think that. Maybe my posts are just boring you because its the same thing over and over again, maybe you’re only here when I’m happy because me being like is making you unhappy.

With that being said, me being depressed the majority of the time is causing my friendships with people to weaken and some to even crumble apart. I don’t know what to do about that, sometimes I think that disconnecting myself with everyone will make all my problems go away. I’ll slowly fade out of everyone’s life and then eventually be forgotten and I’ll be on my own.
Being on my own will make me less stressed on whether everyone likes me or not. I won’t have to constantly be happy to keep a friendship strong, and that then reducing the chances of them leaving.

Its not healthy to think this, nor do I really have anyone to talk to this about so that’s why I post it on my blog.

I just don’t feel okay.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

Blogger Interview – Ft. MIT!

Hey everybody, welcome back to my blog! And today is another Blogger Interview and todays guest is… Fibit (aka Mit)
As always ill link his blog and other social medias down below.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview…

Me : Do you feel as if blogging has helped you through tough times?

Mit : In all honesty, I haven’t really had a tough time in the last couple of years. Blogging has definitely shown me people who are going through much rougher times than me, and it helped me to appreciate that the things I consider “rough” are actually extremely petty.

Me : What blog (or blogs) have you become obsessed with (obsessed isn’t the right word, maybe addicted… no that’s worse) What blog/blogs do you really like?

I haven’t really been on the blogosphere that much recently but I really like (in no particular order): L,Sav, Elm,Selfie,15andsomething, fearlesslyloud (but she’s going to be leaving us 😢😭), Aspen, Colby (She doesn’t post that much though), Tanya, Anthony, Riya Sharma ect… I feel really bad knowing I’ve missed out loads of people but I love so many blogs and bloggers! Basically I love everyone I follow.

Me : Are you the same person you are as you are in your posts?

Mit : I like to think so, but you’ll have to ask my friends 🙂

Me : I’ll ask L. (I did ask L and he said he is)
What would you be doing with your time if you didn’t start your blog?

Mit : I never post, so proberly the same as right now. I spend a lot of time talking to friends from the blogosphere so my free time, if I didn’t have a blog, would proberly be a lot more boring than now. I’d be playing video games or binge watching youtube.

Me : Would you ever leave WordPress for another blogging site?

Mit : Never! Don’t even speak of such blasphemy! The people on the site are brilliant and I’ve met some of my best friends on WordPress. The people are friendly and understanding. Overall, the site’s just fantastic.
You cant get rid of me that easily 😛

Me : Damn you got the hint 😂. Anyway thank you for letting me interview you.

Mit: Thank you for having me!

I had a great time interviewing Mit (Fibit) ill link his social medias down below.

Blog : http://www.alittlebitofmit.wordpress.com
Twitter : @MitInModeration
Kik : Mitmar

He’s an amazing blogger and an great friend so definitely follow him.

Thank you for reading and ill see you soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

Blogger Interviews – Sav!

Hello everybody, welcome back to my blog! It’s that day of the week again…Blogger Friday! And this weeks guest is…. Sav!

This was very a very interesting interview to do, and hopefully to see the same. As always ill link his blog and socials at the end of the post.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview.

Me : There are 5 questions you can answer them as long or as short as you like. The first question is..How did you come up with your blog name?

Sav : Well I actually have undergone three name changes as they have been reflections of the person I was at the time of naming it. For example, I started with the lion’s den due to the fact it was my space on the internet and my real name means lion. I then changed to the savage savannah due to my penchant for insulting things in a savage manner. However a couple days ago i changed it to narcissism and innuendos due to my rather sexual sense of humour as well as my self confidence being mistaken for Narcissism so therefore Narcissism and innuendos made sense as it not only shows what I’ve evolved into but also my sense of humour which is a big part of how I deal with everyday life.

Me : Have you made any close blogger friends in the community?

Sav : Oh hell yes, the blogging community are like my only actual friends. Obviously, due to my standing in the community I feel my closest friends within the community are well known and documented but I won’t be naming them due to potentially forgetting someone out of a slip of memory which could make them get the wrong idea as to how I feel towards them. But genuinely I’ve made so many great friends as well as some drama with a couple bloggers mixed in but for obvious reasons I won’t name them. However that’s all good because I thrive off drama and in my opinion it’s what makes the world go round.

Me : How would you describe your style of writing?

Sav : I call it Sav style… I’m not gonna try be comparing myself to others because I’m unique and at the end of everything we both get shit posted and I’m obviously gonna believe that my stuff is better because I wrote it and there’s no point in writing shit I don’t like. If I had to describe it in terms of adjectives I’d go for speech to text due to the fact I write identically to how I speak be that in posts, text messages. Everything.

Me : Has blogging changed you as a person?

Sav : I would definitely say yes but I’m not sure whether blogging has directly contributed to it. For example it’s made me a lot more educated in terms of the blind community in the case of talking to L and Elm who are blind and they’ve helped me to understand that blind people are humans like the rest of us. I feel as if I’ve changed as a person in terms of the people I’ve met all over the world bringing their energies to the table. But I’d say I’ve changed as a result of natural growth and not because of the way I write. The only thing that’s changed about me is my writing style over time but my personality is the same.

Me : And finally, how long have you been blogging for?

Sav : My year blogaversary (wow I fucking hate that word and whoever made it up) is on the 9th of January 2017 so almost a year.

Me : And the interview done! Thank you for letting me interview you.

Sav : Nah thank YOU for letting me answer your questions.

I hope you enjoyed this interview, as I said in the beginning his blog and socials are linked down below.

Blog : http://www.narcissismandinnuendos.wordpress.com
Twitter : @lonelyli0n
Skype : Sav.the.lion

Ill see you all soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

Blogger Interviews – Ft. Abbymarie

Hello everybody, welcome back to my blog! And as always on Fridays its Interview time!! Where I interview your favourite bloggers!
This weeks guest is…. Abby from Realism and Cookies.
It was a pleasure interviewing Abby and I as always her links are all at the end of this post.. Aka all the socials and her blog.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview…

Me : Have you ever thought about quitting your blog?

Abby : Honestly, no not at all. i love blogging and everything it’s brought into my life, people, experiences, etc. i really don’t think I’d quit anytime soon, so the only thought I’ve really put into it is if it no longer brings me joy is when I’d say I’d have to stop.

Me : How has your blog impacted your life?

Abby : Mainly friend wise I’d have to say. there are so many people i talk to on a regular basis today who i never would have spoken to in my life had i not chosen to blog (#sabby). it actually makes me really sad to think about all the relationships i would have missed out on if i hadn’t gotten into the community.

Me : Have you ever put up a post and then realised its horrible then took it down?

Abby : not immediately after I’d posted it but i do have a few old posts from my very first months of blogging that i took down after i really started gaining followers. there are some things you just don’t want people to read if you know what I’m saying? sometimes i write things and then a few months later realize that i don’t still agree with it completely and don’t want people to think i do.

Me : You have definitely made many friends through WordPress, who are you most closest too?

Abby : haha i feel like everyone probably knows this, but sav of the savage savannah (although don’t quote me on his blog name because he’s undergoing a few changes at the moment). I’m honestly probably closer with him than i am with a lot of my real life friends.

Me : And finally, if you could start your blog brand new what category would you do?

Abby : that’s really what i’m trying to do at the moment (minus the whole starting over brand new thing). it’d probably be a mix of a lot of things, but category wise i think you’d be able to call it a lifestyle blog? music, books, style, stuff that i enjoy writing and talking about. i think starting over brand new I’d just end up back in the same spot writing about those sort of things anyways haha.

Me : The interviews over! Thank you for letting me Interview you

Abby : Of course! thanks for asking me smile

I hope you enjoyed this interview with Abby, as I said in the beginning all her links are down below.

Blog :www.realismandcookies.wordpress.com
Twitter : @abbyelse
It was lovely to interview Abby, definitely follow her blog she writes some amazing content.

Ill see you all soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx