Dear Your Broken Heart

You don’t know who can walk into your life and change it so significantly that it’s unfathomable, that person that walked out of your life did the right thing.

That person can walk out that door without the slightest bit of sadness and that’s honestly great. Sadness is defined an emotional pain, and if leaving caused them none of that then, you shouldn’t feel hurt.

They left without hesitation, and you felt deeply saddened by that. Maybe that person was so special and close to you, maybe that person changed you in ways you felt like you couldn’t do on your own but as I said at the start, people can walk in your life and change it so significantly.

There will always be someone else that unexpectedly walks in your life, that person could become something you cherish more then life itself.
A friendship so remarkable could blossom, or even a relationship that could spark a time you never want to forget.
It’s takes time to heal from a wound, and even more for a broken heart.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

No Title

Lately, I’ve come to realise that I’m not good enough, for anything at all. Yeah, I know what you’re thinking “Stop asking for attention A”.
I’m sure a lot of you, if not all of you think that. Maybe my posts are just boring you because its the same thing over and over again, maybe you’re only here when I’m happy because me being like is making you unhappy.

With that being said, me being depressed the majority of the time is causing my friendships with people to weaken and some to even crumble apart. I don’t know what to do about that, sometimes I think that disconnecting myself with everyone will make all my problems go away. I’ll slowly fade out of everyone’s life and then eventually be forgotten and I’ll be on my own.
Being on my own will make me less stressed on whether everyone likes me or not. I won’t have to constantly be happy to keep a friendship strong, and that then reducing the chances of them leaving.

Its not healthy to think this, nor do I really have anyone to talk to this about so that’s why I post it on my blog.

I just don’t feel okay.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

50 Questions Tag

Because I’m depressed and on the edge of self harm, I thought why not answer questions to distract myself.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I wasn’t. My name is just boring.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
About 5 minutes ago.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Nope, its stupid.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
I don’t have one.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope. I’m a lot too young.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
No, I hate myself.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Yes, it is my first language.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
I do.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Sure, if someone forgets to strap me in proberly and I plunge to an unfortunate death.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
I do ever eat breakfast but on the rare occasions, I would eat Frosties.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
The majority of the time I do not untie them, I do sometimes though.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Nope. Not physically or mentally.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Cookie dough.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
I first notice people height. I don’t know why.

15. RED OR PINK?
Red. I loathe pink.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I already hate everything about myself so everything.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
I miss me the most. I lost a lot of me in the new year and im not the same person.

18. WHAT IS THE SPARK FEATURE THAT HAS HELPED YOU THE MOST?
I have no idea what this question is asking.

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Im not because its 2 in the morning.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A salad. Im still hungry.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Im not listening to music but I do have a youtube video on in the background.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
I’d be blue to represent my mood.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Fresh laundry, new swimming pool, perfume.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Hold on let me check. My mum.

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Mountain hideaway. I don’t like the beach that much.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
WWE, if that counts as a sport. So wrestling.

27. HAIR COLOR?
I find it really hard to see what colour things are. I don’t know.

28. EYE COLOR?
Blue and green. More blue then green.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope, I proberly do need them.

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
I dont know, pizza, burgers. Something really unhealthy.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scary movie.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
I don’t actually know. Proberly the Grinch around Christmas time.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Weirdly enough, pink. Im wearing a jumper though.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
I prefer winter.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Both.

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Something with fudge in it.

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
None. I don’t do exercise.

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer. I dont watch TV ever.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Im not.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Nothing.

41. ANY TATTOOS?
Nope.

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
Someone’s laugh and voice.

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles I guess.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
I don’t know.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
No, im a talentless failure.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Do I say the exact place?. Well, I was born in Taunton which is in the South West of England but I don’t live there.

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
I don’t live that far away from where I was born but I wont say.

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
I actually have no idea.

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
I don’t have one.

50. ANY PETS?
I do. One cat and one dog.

Thanks for reading.
Bye.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

I’m the best

Yo bitches. Today lets talk about me because I love me and I only matter in this world.
Everyone loves me and I know they do because who wouldn’t im absolutely perfect.
There’s only one thing I love more than myself and that is the mirror. I just love looking at myself in the mirror because im such a beautiful person its hard not to stare at me.

I don’t need makeup at all, I’ve got so much natural beauty that everyone’s jealous.
They should be because im the best thing on this earth.

Anyway, I should go.

I know you all love me.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

Roast Myself Challenge

Hey guys! Today I want to roast myself.. Why? No idea. I thought it might be fun and my self esteem is already embedded into the floor so why not do it.
I’m proberly going to get real bitchy with myself so be prepared..

First things first, you’ve got low self esteem and
When walking past people it makes you want to scream.
You think you can do a diss track when you can’t even rap
do yourself a favour and give yourself a good slap.
No one even loves you that’s why you cry all the time
Go and get plastic surgery and maybe then you will look like less of a swine.

Yes bitch, I just went there
stop whining because nobody cares.
Your jokes are weak, and so are you
Its not surprising you can’t get a dude.

Always being friend zoned.. Aww poor you.
Don’t blame other people when the problem is you.
Never original. Lazy as fuck. Ugly also but that’s your bad luck.

That’s right bitch, hitting you deep. When you have all these insecurities all scrambled up
but the truth is no one gives a fuck.

Short ass girl. Only 5ft 1″, maybe that’s why you wont get done.
This diss track is coming to an end
because your not worth my time and
maybe next time learn how to rhyme.

Okay. That was fun. Im not sure if im supposed to tag people. If you want to do it then go ahead but I wont pressure people into tapping into their deepest insecurities.
I hope you enjoyed and ill see you soon.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

A Change

Hey guys, welcome back to my blog! Lets just have a talk.
I’ve been a terrible person, in many ways. This blog used to be so positive and now its a dumping ground of my depression.

From now on I wont talk about my mental health because its just annoying now.
*A publishes a new post*
“I bet it’s another one about her depression”
*Reads post*
“Yep I was right”

I want to get back into doing fun, interesting not depressing posts like monthly stats.. Remember that? Favourites, maybe dabble in a bit of makeup. I want to at some point pull out all my old school things and show you guys how much of a twat I was and give you some tips on how to survive school.. I barely survived.

I also want to collab more, which I haven’t done in a while proberly because it borderline stresses me out. I want to have more fun on this blog. I want to record my spring/summer days out with my best friend. I want to talk to more bloggers, become good friends with bloggers I never thought I’d ever be friends with..
Ill be honest.. Everyone in the blogging community is so great and cool. Its like when you want to be friends with that ‘popular’ cool person in school and you cant because you are awkward and you’d proberly annoy them.. I want to be good friends with a lot of bloggers but I doubt that would happen.

Anyway, I want to make this blog all happy and positive again. Be that happy weirdo you used to know.

Starting from now, there’s going to be a change. Happier posts. I also need to stop sucking at being anonymous.. I bet all of you know who I am now.. I wouldn’t be surprised.

This is just to tell you guys that I’ll stop with the depressing post and ill try my hardest to stop with the negative thoughts that take over me on a daily basis. Soon I’ll put up a singing video.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

Blogger Interview – Ft. MIT!

Hey everybody, welcome back to my blog! And today is another Blogger Interview and todays guest is… Fibit (aka Mit)
As always ill link his blog and other social medias down below.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview…

Me : Do you feel as if blogging has helped you through tough times?

Mit : In all honesty, I haven’t really had a tough time in the last couple of years. Blogging has definitely shown me people who are going through much rougher times than me, and it helped me to appreciate that the things I consider “rough” are actually extremely petty.

Me : What blog (or blogs) have you become obsessed with (obsessed isn’t the right word, maybe addicted… no that’s worse) What blog/blogs do you really like?

I haven’t really been on the blogosphere that much recently but I really like (in no particular order): L,Sav, Elm,Selfie,15andsomething, fearlesslyloud (but she’s going to be leaving us 😢😭), Aspen, Colby (She doesn’t post that much though), Tanya, Anthony, Riya Sharma ect… I feel really bad knowing I’ve missed out loads of people but I love so many blogs and bloggers! Basically I love everyone I follow.

Me : Are you the same person you are as you are in your posts?

Mit : I like to think so, but you’ll have to ask my friends 🙂

Me : I’ll ask L. (I did ask L and he said he is)
What would you be doing with your time if you didn’t start your blog?

Mit : I never post, so proberly the same as right now. I spend a lot of time talking to friends from the blogosphere so my free time, if I didn’t have a blog, would proberly be a lot more boring than now. I’d be playing video games or binge watching youtube.

Me : Would you ever leave WordPress for another blogging site?

Mit : Never! Don’t even speak of such blasphemy! The people on the site are brilliant and I’ve met some of my best friends on WordPress. The people are friendly and understanding. Overall, the site’s just fantastic.
You cant get rid of me that easily 😛

Me : Damn you got the hint 😂. Anyway thank you for letting me interview you.

Mit: Thank you for having me!

I had a great time interviewing Mit (Fibit) ill link his social medias down below.

Blog : http://www.alittlebitofmit.wordpress.com
Twitter : @MitInModeration
Kik : Mitmar

He’s an amazing blogger and an great friend so definitely follow him.

Thank you for reading and ill see you soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

Blogger Interviews – Sav!

Hello everybody, welcome back to my blog! It’s that day of the week again…Blogger Friday! And this weeks guest is…. Sav!

This was very a very interesting interview to do, and hopefully to see the same. As always ill link his blog and socials at the end of the post.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview.

Me : There are 5 questions you can answer them as long or as short as you like. The first question is..How did you come up with your blog name?

Sav : Well I actually have undergone three name changes as they have been reflections of the person I was at the time of naming it. For example, I started with the lion’s den due to the fact it was my space on the internet and my real name means lion. I then changed to the savage savannah due to my penchant for insulting things in a savage manner. However a couple days ago i changed it to narcissism and innuendos due to my rather sexual sense of humour as well as my self confidence being mistaken for Narcissism so therefore Narcissism and innuendos made sense as it not only shows what I’ve evolved into but also my sense of humour which is a big part of how I deal with everyday life.

Me : Have you made any close blogger friends in the community?

Sav : Oh hell yes, the blogging community are like my only actual friends. Obviously, due to my standing in the community I feel my closest friends within the community are well known and documented but I won’t be naming them due to potentially forgetting someone out of a slip of memory which could make them get the wrong idea as to how I feel towards them. But genuinely I’ve made so many great friends as well as some drama with a couple bloggers mixed in but for obvious reasons I won’t name them. However that’s all good because I thrive off drama and in my opinion it’s what makes the world go round.

Me : How would you describe your style of writing?

Sav : I call it Sav style… I’m not gonna try be comparing myself to others because I’m unique and at the end of everything we both get shit posted and I’m obviously gonna believe that my stuff is better because I wrote it and there’s no point in writing shit I don’t like. If I had to describe it in terms of adjectives I’d go for speech to text due to the fact I write identically to how I speak be that in posts, text messages. Everything.

Me : Has blogging changed you as a person?

Sav : I would definitely say yes but I’m not sure whether blogging has directly contributed to it. For example it’s made me a lot more educated in terms of the blind community in the case of talking to L and Elm who are blind and they’ve helped me to understand that blind people are humans like the rest of us. I feel as if I’ve changed as a person in terms of the people I’ve met all over the world bringing their energies to the table. But I’d say I’ve changed as a result of natural growth and not because of the way I write. The only thing that’s changed about me is my writing style over time but my personality is the same.

Me : And finally, how long have you been blogging for?

Sav : My year blogaversary (wow I fucking hate that word and whoever made it up) is on the 9th of January 2017 so almost a year.

Me : And the interview done! Thank you for letting me interview you.

Sav : Nah thank YOU for letting me answer your questions.

I hope you enjoyed this interview, as I said in the beginning his blog and socials are linked down below.

Blog : http://www.narcissismandinnuendos.wordpress.com
Twitter : @lonelyli0n
Skype : Sav.the.lion

Ill see you all soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger signing out xxx

Blogger Interviews – Ft. Abbymarie

Hello everybody, welcome back to my blog! And as always on Fridays its Interview time!! Where I interview your favourite bloggers!
This weeks guest is…. Abby from Realism and Cookies.
It was a pleasure interviewing Abby and I as always her links are all at the end of this post.. Aka all the socials and her blog.

Without further or do, lets begin this interview…

Me : Have you ever thought about quitting your blog?

Abby : Honestly, no not at all. i love blogging and everything it’s brought into my life, people, experiences, etc. i really don’t think I’d quit anytime soon, so the only thought I’ve really put into it is if it no longer brings me joy is when I’d say I’d have to stop.

Me : How has your blog impacted your life?

Abby : Mainly friend wise I’d have to say. there are so many people i talk to on a regular basis today who i never would have spoken to in my life had i not chosen to blog (#sabby). it actually makes me really sad to think about all the relationships i would have missed out on if i hadn’t gotten into the community.

Me : Have you ever put up a post and then realised its horrible then took it down?

Abby : not immediately after I’d posted it but i do have a few old posts from my very first months of blogging that i took down after i really started gaining followers. there are some things you just don’t want people to read if you know what I’m saying? sometimes i write things and then a few months later realize that i don’t still agree with it completely and don’t want people to think i do.

Me : You have definitely made many friends through WordPress, who are you most closest too?

Abby : haha i feel like everyone probably knows this, but sav of the savage savannah (although don’t quote me on his blog name because he’s undergoing a few changes at the moment). I’m honestly probably closer with him than i am with a lot of my real life friends.

Me : And finally, if you could start your blog brand new what category would you do?

Abby : that’s really what i’m trying to do at the moment (minus the whole starting over brand new thing). it’d probably be a mix of a lot of things, but category wise i think you’d be able to call it a lifestyle blog? music, books, style, stuff that i enjoy writing and talking about. i think starting over brand new I’d just end up back in the same spot writing about those sort of things anyways haha.

Me : The interviews over! Thank you for letting me Interview you

Abby : Of course! thanks for asking me smile

I hope you enjoyed this interview with Abby, as I said in the beginning all her links are down below.

Blog :www.realismandcookies.wordpress.com
Twitter : @abbyelse
It was lovely to interview Abby, definitely follow her blog she writes some amazing content.

Ill see you all soon with another post.

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx

Interview With Em -NEW SERIES

Hello everybody, and welcome to a new series! By the title you can already guess. This series is where I interview bloggers asking them questions about anything and everything blogging.

The first blogger interview is with Em! Also known as LyfwithEm. Definitely follow her blog she is amazing!
Without further ir do here is the interview…
Me : How does it feel to have such an amazing blogging family?

Em:  One word. Amazing. Before I began my blog, I would never have imagined that having a network of people, some older, some younger, from all areas of the world, could be so inspiring. Every single day I am inspired by the posts, the photos and the journeys I am taken on just in a few words. More than that, I am compelled to live my life better because of these people. I read about those who are struggling, as well as those who are in the highs of life, and together we get through the rough times, and also enjoy the good times. I am blessed to have made so many strong friendships, and I would not be where I am today if I didn’t have these amazing people in my life. The support I have received during my time has been enough to keep me going, and strive for better in myself and in my life. The blogging community is amazing, enhancing and wondrous. I am so glad to be a part of it.

Me : How long have you been blogging for?

Em : I started my blog in August 2015, when I was on holiday in Florida, at a time when I needed an outlet and someone to talk to more than ever. A year and a half later, and I’m still here. Typing away. My blog has grown. I have grown. And in the past year and half I have learned so much and experienced so many different things. I’m not proud to admit that I took a long break this year, whilst dealing with some difficult struggles, but I’m back, and 2017 is going to be a year filled with blogging.

Me : Who in the blogging community has impacted your life the most, and why?

Em : Goodness me, I don’t think I can name a person. How can I, when everybody is so motivating, kind and always spreading positivity? I can name a few – Elm, Luna, Georgie, Reine, L, Em, Selfie, Ash, Chloe, Hideaway Girl, Anna, A K A the Author, obviously you, Flawed Silence, Emily, and so, so many more. I feel bad not to be able to name everybody, but I’m half asleep and have probably left some very important people out! All of these people are constantly building me up, showing me the good sides of life and making me smile every day. They’re there for me when I need them, and their posts always light up my face. I can’t pick out a single person, because that would be unfair to the many who work so hard and are so involved in this amazing community. Plus, I could never choose out of the dozens there are. Everybody impacts my life. Every single post I read, I take away something. Whether it’s just a few words, the general meaning of the post, or a good laugh – everyone impacts my life in some way.

Me : Obviously you have incredibly supportive followers, have you had any hate?

Em : Not that I can remember. I don’t think I’ve ever received any direct hate. If I have, it’s not something that’s stuck in mind. I think that in this blogging world, everybody is so lovely and we have a very close knit community. I think hate would only take place if someone from the outside got in, and in my experience that hasn’t happened. I remember once, I had a misunderstanding with another blogger, which obviously wasn’t hate, but I felt so bad because it was my fault. I hadn’t explicitly done anything, I’d just been unaware of something and caused a misunderstanding. That wasn’t hate, but I’d felt very guilty and upset about it at the time! I think if anyone started receiving hate, they must let their followers know, because we’d all be there to stick up for them! And they mustn’t let it get to them either. Those who hate are just trying to bring you down, for no other reason than they are unhappy in themselves – something very important to remember when online.

Me : Have you ever thought about doing beauty, hauls and going down that route?

Em : It isn’t something I’ve spent a great deal of time considering. I mean, it has passed through my mind a few times, but no more than that. I’m not that into beauty, and definitely don’t see myself as being any sort of beauty guru. I’m the type of person who needs to learn off other people before I can do that myself. My blog is more of a place where I can express myself. If, one-day, I think that yes, today is the day to do an eyebrow tutorial, or something like that, then by all means, I won’t hesitate. I’ll do it. But I don’t think my blog could ever become completely beauty focused. I’m definitely more of a lifestyle, personal type blog where I just spill out my feelings and hope someone is reading.

Me : Fantastic! The interviews done. Thank you so much Em for letting me interview you 😊

Em : You’re welcome! I enjoyed it. I hope your readers like my answers 🙂

And that was the interview with Em! I’ll definitely link her blog down below with all of her social media’s. I hope you enjoyed this interview, there are many more to come.
Also, this is a weekly Friday series at 5pm.
I’ll see you soon.

WordPress : http://www.lyfwithem.com
Twitter : @LyfWithEm
Instagram : @LyfWithEm
Kik : @LyfWithEm

Anonymous blogger, signing out xxx